Have a blessed day everyone!!
This morning, in spite of my tiredness and my biology trying to come for me, I woke up with a praise song in my heart! It's a song we sing in the choir...
"I will praise the Lord. I will praise the Lord. For He alone is worthy of all my praise. I will praise the Lord. I will praise the Lord. For He alone is worthy. For He alone is worthy. For He alone is worthy. Worthy of all praise!"
As I began to contemplate that age old battle, should I hit snooze or end on my alarm, I realized that I was sleepy, my brain is awake. So, I am laying in my bed this a.m. as I blog...
This morning, I opened my Bible and re-read that verse that's been carrying me through this recent trial. I started thinking about my most recent conversation with my pastor. We were talking about my dilemma in wanting to go to grad school, but not being sure where I was supposed to go and what I'm supposed to do. she was curious why seminary was on the list of possibilities for me and I told her I honestly didn't know, part of me just felt like I was supposed to and the more we talked about it, the less I could identify what made me request info from them. Pondering that conversation this morning, I think I've arrived at the why of it all...
I've blogged previously about how God has always had to have a hard hand with me because I always want to choose my path, then ask the Lord to bless it after I've already chosen it. There are so many instances in my life where God has had to literally step in and intervene, if only to steer me in the direction that I was supposed to go. There are 3 major incidents in my life that come to mind immediately. 1.) the lime vodka incident of 1996 - which traumatized me for years by proxy, but lead me to stop playing around with alcohol and wait until I was old enough to legally drink it. 2.) The time I got an F in Cross-Cultural Psychology. I never turned in the take-home final, bc I had made the ridiculous decision to sell my books back before the semester was over. Being prideful, I didn't want to admit what I had done to my professor and Failure to participate in the final is an automatic F. 3.) The time that God clearly wanted me to work at CYF, but I didn't want to, so I chose to work in behavioral health until I got fired for being honest and ended up at CYF anyway...
My hardheadedness is epic, but look what God has done in my life, despite my failings?? I have grown and flourished in so many ways because has God has kept me on HIS path.
So, I've finally come to trust God, even when I don't necessarily hear what He's saying. When the word Seminary was uttered as a possible possibility for me, some years ago, I immediately began to backpedal. Noooooooo! So this year, when the word returned, I actually started to consider it because I was so adamant against it. Does that make sense? Because of my past experiences, I started to think that maybe my loud and fervent NOs were just the precursor to God getting what He wants anyway, so I might as well just start giving in now. Meanwhile, I hadn't received God's call, I just assumed that's what was going on. I asked God to tell me which school to pick and didn't hear anything. A friend suggested that I stop trying to limit God and just ask Him to direct my path. Here, in this season of Lenten preparation, that is exactly what I'm doing. I'm praying for clear direction on Easter Sunday.
Today, I read the book of Jonah and chuckled to myself. He is so me! God tells him what to do and he runs away from it. God intervenes in the awol directly and Jonah ends up exactly the place he didn't want to be. Jonah gives in and begins to prophesy that Ninevah is going to be destroyed by God. The city and its ruler begin to repent to God and they are not destroyed. Good ending right? Sure, but not in Jonah's eyes. Instead of being happy that the people changed their ways and have been saved from God's wrath, Jonah gets an attitude. And I bet it had less to do with Nineveh deserving the punishment and more to do with Jonah's pride. He has gone around the city for 3 days straight, warning them of God's wrath, only for it not to happen. I can only imagine that he felt stupid and like everyone else agreed! Then he got angry. How dare God make him look stupid? Forget that grace and mercy that saved him from drowning in the ocean three days ago, Jonah doesn't think that grace and mercy should apply to Nineveh. So Jonah is mad and has the audacity to tell God he has the right to be mad. God shows him continuing grace and mercy and doesn't smite him on the spot. Instead, he gently reminds him of who He is as God the creator, God our Father and its awesome. God the Father puts up with sulky "teenage" Me all the time and I wonder why lol. Then the book of Jonah abruptly comes to an end... I wonder what happened next in Jonah's life?
Time to get ready for work.
Have a lovely day!
Blogging did not happen today.... :-( but sometimes you just have to push through and trust that God has got it. So allow me to praise Him for what He's already done and in advance for what He's about to do! Walter Hawkins - Thank You Lord (for all you've d…: http://youtu.be/4FXq1Eff4M4
Every holiday in March is important to me, probably due to the fact that they're each like a mini-countdown to my birthday. Today, I realized that it was the Ides of March and I immediately thought to myself, "Beware the ides of March!". The day carried on, however, and my mind began to wander over the different stressors in my life. I found myself replaying an interaction and then crafting a response, over and over again... I realized that I was doing it again, making my mountains more important than God. A verse/song came to mind... Cast all your cares on Jesus, for He cares for you! I went to the Word to get it from the source and reading it in context, found some more Word that spoke directly to the situation. (It's attached to this post btw).
As I named this post, I decided to research the ides of March and what do you know, it had an application to the Scripture I found! Here's the story:
So, in 44 BC, Julius Caesar was that dude. Plutarch predicted that he would be assassinated by the Ides of March. That day came, and Caesar pretty much laughed in Plutarch's face because he was still alive that day ... only to go inside the Senate gathering where he would be killed by his fellow senators, who had secretly been conspiring against him.
So, beware the ides of March, to me, now means Pay Attention and Watch Your Back (and your front, and your sides lol). Factions and political parties will rise and fall, but I don't have to spend time and energy getting involved in it. God is able to handle it, but I just need to hand it to Him!
Dear Lord, please take these burdens away. They are heavy, they are taxing, and I'm sick of them. Help me to leave them with You and not pick them back up again. In Jesus' name, Amen.
Enjoy your day everyone!
Just a quick post about God's faithfulness.
I'm just so thankful for what He has done for me, in this week alone, that I gotta praise Him.
Of course such a good week has to have some drama stirring, but whatever devil, God is in control!
Lord help me to continue to keep my priorities in check. You first!,
Lamentations 3:21-26 NKJV
This I recall to my mind, Therefore I have hope. Through the Lord ’s mercies we are not consumed, Because His compassions fail not. They are new every morning; Great is Your faithfulness. “The Lord is my portion,” says my soul, “Therefore I hope in Him!” The Lord is good to those who wait for Him, To the soul who seeks Him. It is good that one should hope and wait quietly For the salvation of the Lord .
Have you ever woke up feeling some type of way? Just irritated for no reason and you know that it has nothing to do with biology?
After I finished my post this morning and worked out, my mind started to rehash all of the stuff from this weekend that bothered me. Most of it was very minor but that didn't stop my brain from replaying all of it today...
Before you know it, I was out of my peaceful place and back in the thick of negativity. And while I wrestled with it, I realized the problem.
The problem is that I let other things, other people take top priority in my life and when those things disappointed me (as everything besides God will eventually do), I lost some of my joy. This wouldn't have happened if I had my priorities straight. God has to be first because He will never fail me. He will uphold me and sustain me so that life's disappointments will not break me down.
Now I get it!
Thank you Lord for the revelation!
Thoughts from today....
In times of stress, we often seek God, but we need to seek Him first, all the time, in everything, before we even get stressed.
People often try to throw negativity on you, but you don't have to accept it...
Asking God to direct my paths, hence where this scripture came from...
Today is Ash Sunday and we have officially entered the Lenten season.
Starting tomorrow, scripture/reading time will be an hour, exercise for 30 minutes. I'll also be fasting from fiction. Lord, help!
Whoops. Totally forgot to blog yesterday! I was so excited to get in my bed and go to sleep and that is exactly what I did! And it was awesome. Of course, I dreamed about crazy stuff.
The biggest part I remember is that my co-workers and I and our boss had just finished up at Lexington. We found out that they were looking for additional on-call teams and that we could earn overtime. So we paired up, but then had to wait awhile until we got one. The on-site we got was about some guy out in the sticks who was mistreating pigs.... not children, pigs! There were no children mentioned in the report and I asked the sup why we had to go out (as he was dressed in all his Que colors lol) and he said somebody knew there were children in the home. We went through waterways to get there, which was odd. Then the dream switched up. I think I woke myself up and checked the time. When I fell back asleep, I was responding to KIDS problems via e-mail .... boring! LOL.
My earlier dreams definitely featured my mom and we were still living together. She wasn't sick yet, and my dad brought us several bottles of alcohol.... brandy and stuff. Neither of us is/was a big drinker so we were thinking about how to sell everything but a couple of bottles of brandy - bc it's good for you when you're sick. *shrug* Not sure what my subconscious was trying to tell me but that was a lot.
My schedule is packed today. Attending a Birthday breakfast party, then chapter mtg, then youth auxiliary mtg, then a birthday dinner party. ..
Have a wonderful Saturday everyone. I am looking forward to the better weather today!
Oh no! It's quarter to midnight and I didn't blog today..... smh.
This whole time period is just doing the most. I'm way too busy, but I wouldn't have it any other way. I'm constantly on the go and sitting still only lasts for so long....
One of my BFFs told me yesterday how, at my mom's funeral, she remembers reading the obituary and just being amazed at all my mom did and how that explained everything about me.
It's like I was born to be busy.
Some food for thought....
John 5:17 NIV
"In his defense Jesus said to them, “My Father is always at his work to this very day, and I too am working.”"
Colossians 3:23 NIV
"Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for human masters"
1 Timothy 6:8-10 NIV
"But if we have food and clothing, we will be content with that. Those who want to get rich fall into temptation and a trap and into many foolish and harmful desires that plunge people into ruin and destruction. For the love of money is a root of all kinds of evil. Some people, eager for money, have wandered from the faith and pierced themselves with many griefs."
Today, it occurred to me that I have a problem with money. And while I don't think I overspend per se, I allow money to have too much control over me, my thoughts and actions.
This week, while I prepare for the Daniel Fast, I will also reflect on God's goodness and how He can and will make a way out of now way. That He will help me with this money addiction
Fighting sleep. But I got a post done. G'night!