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Tuesday, March 11, 2014

Blogging My Way Through March - Day 11 - Eureka Pt. 2 - 3/11/14

So I’m 90 minutes behind schedule.. . but the important part is I made it!
Out of my bed and to the computer. Woohoo! Even though one of my eyes is trying to stay closed, it is time to awaken. My downfall is two-fold. One, I got home at 11pm and had to eat dinner, albeit a very late dinner. It was a can of peas and a tangerine and it was every bit of awesome! (Clearly, I was too hungry to care). Two, I had a retreatment of one of my root canals so I woke up in pain this morning. This made it even easier to continue to lay in the bed with my face on a cold gel pack. (Yes, I keep these at my bedside. My bedroom windows are so cold, it makes the gel cold.)  

So, yesterday, God revealed to me my wrongdoing, in putting top priority on everything but Him. As the day went on, I continued to marinate on this, and I realized that this wasn’t just my thoughts. It has also been evident in how I have prioritized my time, my energy, and even my money.  Let the church say “Ouch!”. Putting God first has been super hard and I have to admit one of the things that has set me up for failure in this regard has been my own selfish desire. Too often, I have said to myself, You never do anything just for you. You’re always working for everyone else. When are you going to have fun just for yourself? Remember that church, work,  sorority combo from one of my previous posts? Matter of fact, in that post, I thought I had successfully re prioritized myself because my thoughts and my actions lined up to put God first. But I didn’t realize that I had to take it deeper. Another thing that has set me up for failure is my tendency to agree to do stuff, but not really have the extra time to do it. I am a committed and loyal person, so if I say I’m going to do something, I’m going to do it and finish the task. Even if I no longer want to do it. I like to feel needed. Another thing that gets my caught up is my gifts – I believe I have the gift of teaching. It’s a gift I have run away from for a very long time, but one of my greatest joys is to share information with someone who might not otherwise get it or understand it. Now does this mean I want to be a teacher? Umm, I hope not. LOL. But I love to use my gifts within the realms of the areas of my life (church, work, sorority)….


So, what does the Word say? Hmmm, not sure yet. I’m honestly too sleepy to read anything without falling back asleep again. To be continued!  

Monday, March 10, 2014

Eureka - Pt 1....

Have you ever woke up feeling some type of way?  Just irritated for no reason and you know that it has nothing to do with biology?

After I finished my post this morning and worked out, my mind started to rehash all of the stuff from this weekend that bothered me. Most of it was very minor but that didn't stop my brain from replaying all of it today...

Before you know it, I was out of my peaceful place and back in the thick of negativity. And while I wrestled with it, I realized the problem.

The problem is that I let other things, other people take top priority in my life and when those things disappointed me (as everything besides God will eventually do), I lost some of my joy. This wouldn't have happened if I had my priorities straight. God has to be first because He will never fail me.  He will uphold me and sustain me so that life's disappointments will not break me down.

Now I get it!
Thank you Lord for the revelation!

-BlueLady

Blogging My Way Through March - Day 10 - The Next Steps

Good morning Lord!It’s early. I’m sleepy. And my back hurts. But regardless of all that, I wake up with a spirit of gratefulness. Thank you so much for waking me up this morning! Thank you for the 8 hours of sleep that I just woke up from! Thank you for brand new mercies and the opportunity to act right today. God, forgive me for any impure thoughts that I may have had yesterday and/or last night and help me to always be a light for you. Thank you Lord for loving me, though I don’t deserve it. As I continue this Lenten journey, help me to focus on You and Your ultimate sacrifice rather than me and the miniscule, temporary fasting that I plan to do. Thank you Lord for everything! You are amazing! Amen

So yesterday, I briefly posted about negativity, but the bottom line of the post was that I was asking God to direct my path. Sometimes, heck maybe a lot of times, I end up in situations that I have no business being in. So, I am doing my best to be open to God’s will in regards to this and every situation. Along with that, I am also trying to figure out what I am supposed to be doing, educationally and/or professionally. One of my friends from church enlightened me that I was limiting God by asking Him “Which school should I go to? This one or that one?” instead I need to ask God what He wants me to do and where He wants me to go. It’s really about allowing Him to lead me, instead of heading in one direction and then asking for confirmation.

If you’ve been reading any of my posts, you know that standing still is a whole issue for me! It’s not even just my mind, but my muscles and bones actually ache if I lay down for too long. If I sleep for over 8 hours, I wake up sore in some regard. Hence, my backache. During this Lenten season, I have promised to fast and my prayer is for answers to all these things that are a concern to me. I need God to make my next steps crystal clear.

Bible Time:
So, the way that I normally start my personal bible study is by thinking of a concept, then using the mini-concordance in the back of my Bible, I look for the references that use that word. I weed out the references that are clearly a different definition than I want to use. Then I read all of the remaining verses in the context of the entire chapter (most times) that they are found in. I pull out the verses that speak to me and type them out. Today, I looked at Paths….

Psalm 23:1-3
“The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not be in want. He makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters, he restores my soul. He guides me in paths of righteousness for his name’s sake.”

Psalm 25:1-5
“To you, O Lord, I lift up my soul; in you I trust, O my God. Do not let me be put to shame, nor let my enemies triumph over me. No one whose hope is in you will ever be put to shame, but they will be put to shame who are treacherous without excuse. Show me your ways, O Lord, teach me your paths; guide me in your trust and teach me, for you are God my Savior, and my home is in you all day long.”

Psalm 27:4-6
“One thing I ask of the Lord, this is what I seek: that I may dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life, to gaze up on the beauty of the Lord and to seek him in his temple. For in the day of trouble, he will keep me safe in his dwelling; he will hide me in the shelter of his tabernacle.

Proverbs 3:3-6; 11-12
“Let love and faithfulness never leave you; bind them around your neck, write them on the tablet of your heart. Then you will win favor and a good name in the sight of God and man. Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight.” “My son, do not despise the Lord’s discipline and do not resent his rebuke, because the Lord disciplines those he loves, as a father the son he delights in.”

Isaiah 26:7-9
“The path of the righteous is level; O upright One, you make the way of the righteous smooth. Yes, Lord, walking in the way of your laws, we wait for you; your name and renown are the desires of our hearts. My soul yearns for you in the night; in the morning my spirit longs for you. When your judgments come up on the earth, the people of the world learn righteousness.”

2 Corinthians 6:16b-17a
“…As God has said: ‘I will live with them and walk among them, and I will be their God, and they will be my people.’ ‘Therefore come out from them and be separate, says the Lord… ‘”

Videos: I missed posting these! These are the songs that came to me while I studied!

Marvin Sapp (One Thing)

Richard Smallwood (I Will Sing Praises)


Daryl Coley (He’s Preparing Me) - yup that's my church's mime group! This song was choreographed by Rev. John Davidson, my original mime leader when I was in Creative Expressions as a teenager. We did this song back then. I brought it to our mime group in 2011. This was the first time we did it.

Gasp - just remembered the song that fits the most!

GMWA Women of Worship (Order My Steps)



I've tarried here long enough this morning. It's time to workout!

ttyl!
-BlueLady

Sunday, March 9, 2014

Day 9 - Blogging My Way Through March - a brief note on negativity

Wooooo-sahhhhh

Thoughts from today....
In times of stress, we often seek God, but we  need to seek Him first, all the time, in everything, before we even get stressed.

People often try to throw negativity on you, but you don't have to accept it...

Asking God to direct my paths, hence where this scripture came from...

Today is Ash Sunday and we have officially entered the Lenten season.

Starting tomorrow, scripture/reading  time will be an hour, exercise for 30 minutes. I'll also be fasting from fiction. Lord, help!

Saturday, March 8, 2014

Blogging My Way Through March - Day 8 - Post 7

Whoops. Totally forgot to blog yesterday! I was so excited to get in my bed and go to sleep and that is exactly what I did! And it was awesome. Of course, I dreamed about crazy stuff.

The biggest part I remember is that my co-workers and I and our boss had just finished up at Lexington. We found out that they were looking for additional on-call teams and that we could earn overtime. So we paired up, but then had to wait awhile until we got one. The on-site we got was about some guy out in the sticks who was mistreating pigs.... not children, pigs! There were no children mentioned in the report and I asked the sup why we had to go out (as he was dressed in all his Que colors lol) and he said somebody knew there were children in the home. We went through waterways to get there, which was odd. Then the dream switched up. I think I woke myself up and checked the time. When I fell back asleep, I was responding to KIDS problems via e-mail ....  boring! LOL.
My earlier dreams definitely featured my mom and we were still living together. She wasn't sick yet, and my dad brought  us several bottles of alcohol.... brandy and stuff. Neither of us is/was a big drinker so we were thinking about how to sell everything but a couple of bottles of brandy - bc it's good for you when you're sick. *shrug* Not sure what my subconscious was trying to tell me but that was a lot.

My schedule is packed today. Attending a  Birthday breakfast party, then chapter mtg, then youth auxiliary mtg, then a birthday dinner party. ..

Have a wonderful Saturday everyone. I am looking forward to the better weather today!

Ttyl
-BlueLady

Thursday, March 6, 2014

Blogging My Way Through March - Day6 - Born to be Busy

Oh no! It's quarter to midnight and I didn't blog today..... smh.

This whole time period is just doing the most. I'm way too busy, but I wouldn't have it any other way.  I'm constantly on the go and sitting still only lasts for so long....
One of my BFFs told me yesterday how, at my mom's funeral, she remembers reading the obituary and just being amazed at all my mom did and how that explained everything about me.

It's like I was born to be busy.

Some food for thought....

John 5:17 NIV
"In his defense Jesus said to them, “My Father is always at his work to this very day, and I too am working.”"

Colossians 3:23 NIV
"Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for human masters"

G'night

Wednesday, March 5, 2014

Blogging My Way Through March - Day 5 - Video

It's Wednesday and I realize I've been remiss in my video posting. I had 8 hrs of sleep last night so I woke up ready to tackle my to do list today!
On my grind (in the most legal way!)
-BlueLady